Dear diary, I love my life today…..

I really do and it’s been a long time coming

I feel like I had lost my spark, a series of events dimmed it further and further, having to move house twice, doing a degree that was unfulfilling and ended in lockdown, so no exhibition, no graduation etc, the whole plandemic nonsense, our beautiful dog Stanley dying suddenly, and trying to navigate personal hard things. And finding out I’m ADHD, have sensory processing disorder and dyscalculia proper threw me in a grieving period and questioning my whole life, and how it could have been different. And then illness.

I knew it was in there still and I clung onto so many moments of joy, nature filling me up, my creativity keeping me sane, but my confidence was low, you wouldn’t know by looking at my socials, I’m very good at sharing the things that bring me happiness and hopefully bring others happiness too, and to be honest I didn’t really know either I had lost my confidenceI just knew I didn’t feel the same. And I stopped going out and doing things unless it was with Tom or the dog.

But this weekend something amazing has happened, and I’m ever so grateful, a while ago Cali from The Witches' Revival asked me and another artist to join her and put on a fabulous course all about wise woman, this weekend Cali and I held the in person part of it for Lancaster (Sally the other artist is with Cali for the Hebden Bridge event soon) and I thought I was going along to be the artist, and help women paint, they are creating work for an exhibition at The Witches' Revival-Wisewoman Calls us Home! -A transformational weekend of healing and empowerment

I loved teaching an experimental senses workshop during the event.

The participants were lovely, and it was brilliant spending a weekend with open women.

But a transformation has happened and I’ve come alive! Being in the space with amazing women, finding the confidence I once had, transforming the way I viewed myself for a long time, so many layers of awakening and the spark coming back. I didn’t know all that was going to happen. I’m ready to be back in the world as this new me, I’m ready. And it feels so good.

Me putting art supplies out.

Photo by Cali as we set up, and yes I’m in my bloomers as I’m having a hot flush I didn’t teach like this.

If you don’t know my full story from council estate teen mum in a domestic violent relationship to how I became an artist, I feel it’s time for an updated version as this was a few years ago, but it might be interesting to listen to.

This new found confidence has inspired me to create a 6 week art course, I am really excited to put it together, it will be in Lancaster, limited to 6 places, so will be a close group and we will delve into all sorts of conscious creativity. When it is ready, I will share it on my socials and in my newsletter. If you would like to be emailed about it, contact me and when I have final details, I will email you first.